...well this sure is a roller coaster Jesus has them all on, now isn't it? Drake just watches him for a long moment, still and quiet, taking in his miserable expression. He sounds as genuine about this as he had about not signing, is the problem, and Drake feels like the knife he didn't bother to pull out of his chest yet is being twisted again.

It doesn't show, his calm mask very firmly in place. This can't be something Jesus decides on out of guilt.

"Okay," he says carefully, "but three days ago you said you needed to not be. Those aren't mutually exclusive feelings."